My aunt died last night. My Uncle came home and just found her with her head down on the kitchen table. She was gone.
My sister is the one who told me. She called me sobbing and all I could do was sit on the other end of the phone speechless. I’ve never been good at being sad. It makes me feel terrible sometimes. I mean this woman had a hand in shaping me into who I am today. I would spend entire weekends at her house and at one point I pretty much lived with her. Her children are more like a brother and sister rather than cousins. Yet, I can’t cry. I probably never will either.
I have cried over more ridiculous things in my life. I mean I have bawled my fucking eyes out but today…nothing.
How I feel alll the time on Tumblr lol. I have been unfollowing a lot of people who are just way too young for me to be following and it usually shows. I don’t unfollow them because their blogs are bad but we just don’t have anything in common.
There are a few exceptions to this rule though. ;)
“Ever since we met, it’s about what I’m doing wrong. But I’m not the one with the problem. You are, you and your selfishness. All you do is take. I’ve got nothing for you right now, so maybe it’s time to start thinking about someone other than yourself.”—Molly Gunn, Uptown Girls (via always-lissa)
Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly And can you kneel before the king And say I’m clean, I’m clean
But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Oh tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart
A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think when you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections
But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Oh tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart So tell me now, where was my fault
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life Oh Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life