What the fuck is up with undersaturating ALL your pictures? People with the most expensive DSLR’s choose to “retouch” pictures to the seventies style where colors are not really saturated. It is nice if you use this effect here and there, but fucking embrace your technology and let colors be…
But if they don’t then it won’t get reblogged a billion trillion times! Duhhhhhhhhhh!
I DON’T UNDERSTAND WOMEN. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP WHEN YOU’VE MOVED ON, FALLEN OUT OF LOVE, GAVE IT A GO, RUN YOUR COURSE AND JUST WANT OUT? WHY MUST IT BE SO DIFFICULT TO BREAK SOMEONES HEART?
“When there’s a trap set up for you
In every corner of this town
And so you learn the only way to go is underground
When there’s a trap set up for you
In every corner of your room
And so you learn the only way to go is through the roof”—THROUGH THE ROOF ‘N’ UNDERGROUND - Gogol Bordello
I'm currently listening to old music an reminiscing.
I’m reflecting on the last few years. Since the day I turned 21 my life has been nothing but turbulent, unpredictable, and without direction. I know, I know, I know what you’re thinking, “well, that’s life kid,” and you’re absolutely right. I just feel like these last few years have been fucking harsh. I’ve had to deal with shit in my life that most people couldn’t even dream of. All before the time I was 12. I was forced to grow up and fast. Now that I’m here, I feel as if I’ve failed in almost every aspect of being a true adult.
I’m 23 years old. Shouldn’t I know who I am by this point? Shouldn’t I have some sort of life goal that I am working towards? I did. I did have some great plan for my life but each and every time I took a step towards the future I so desperately wanted life came out of nowhere and knocked me two steps back. Now I am left here, yet again. scrambling to pick up all of the pieces. I just don’t know if I have the will to keep picking them up or if I even remember in which order they are supposed to go.
On top of all that living 70 something odd miles from any shred of family has not helped at all. I’ve pretty much ostracized my self both from my family and my best friend. I’ll be the first to say it: I am absolutely horrible at keeping in touch with anybody. That is entirely my fault. I do (did) find time to go and visit my family at least 2-3 times a month. Lately I have just been so tired of it all. I always have to hear, “well, you live to far.” Not once has any of them made a real effort to come out an visit me. It’s always left up to me. Because of this I had a huge argument with my sister and now she won’t even talk to me and I’m pretty sure my mom has a huge chip on her shoulder.
Blah, I hate being so ranty. I guess what I am trying to say is that there are many areas in my life right now that need improvement.
I’m not who I want to be and I feel as if I am light years away from even getting there.
I can’t help but to feel terribly bad for todays youth. The way that certain lifestyles are glorified in today’s media is gross and horrifying. No wonder we have a bunch of uneducated, drug doing, and promiscuous, teenage drunks on our hands. Parents need to get their heads out of their asses and, ya know, parent.
“I can’t say that character would be one of your strongest assets. Not that we’re perfect, merely extra-perfect. So don’t think you know a thing about a thing you know nothing about. Go fuck yourselves, leave us alone.”
Her Words Destroyed My Planet - Motion City Soundtrack
“The things that used to mean so much to me have gone the way of dinosaurs: hopes and dreams and everything. All I want for you to be is happy or something. I guess anything is better than the time you spent hoping I got it sorted out.”
You’ve been on my mind a lot today. Every time I read those things my heart stops for a split second. Are any of them you reaching out to me? Then I shake my head and realize I can’t be that vain. You aren’t thinking of me now. You weren’t even thinking of me then.